“Claire,” he parroted back to her, not really taking notice of the warning tone.
He didn't plan on keeping her locked up the remainder of the pregnancy, damn he didn't even plan to keep her bed bound for the rest of there very short downtime. He was just going to make sure that she actually did eat something, rested in the evenings with him – because despite everything he might have slept whilst off world but it was nothing compared to coming back to Claire – as they actually got over the shock of the news.
He wasn't sure how much he would get away with when it came to looking after Claire, he had never really 'looked after' her before, and she was a strong woman, half the time she didn't need him looking after her. It normally ended up being the other way around, he got looked after by Claire. But he wanted to do this for her, he had somehow managed to get her pregnant and yes he was beginning to feel a little bit big headed about that, him of all people managed to give Claire something that he hadn't even thought possible.
He pulled her hand up and gave it a brief kiss, “We'll be fine,” he said, like that was going to make everything all okay. Although what they'd be fine about he didn't know, the whole situation was something neither of them had prepared for, even in the abstract way they had spoken of children this hadn't even crossed his mind and yet there he was faced with the prospect of raising a child, and it made him wonder exactly what he would teach the child.
He briefly wondered what people would say once the populace of Atlantis found out, his reputation might not have followed him as much around Atlantis, they were such a small outpost that most people knew him pretty well now and knew half the reputation thing was just talk. But still people would wonder, wonder whether he'd make a good father, hell he himself was wondering the exact same thing, he'd bed hopped for so long, treating women in a way that he wouldn't want his child to be treated. Was he going to be a good father?
Pushing the thoughts aside for now, he was still in a public place, he didn't want Beckett noticing his worry and commenting on it, not that the doctor would, but still he didn't want anyone to see it. He would talk to Claire, once they were back in their quarters, once they were in private, maybe he could have a mini freak out then to wrap his head around the whole thing.
He laughed lightly as Claire told him that Bump still had several months to cook, he could imagine there was going to be a lot of bad puns shared between the two of them over the coming months. He might be a patient bloke at times, but he knew deep his heart that the closer Claire got to giving birth the more impatient he was going to get, not that he would show that to Claire, after all she was the one that would have to give birth, not him.
Caleb felt like someone had taken the air from his lungs as Beckett turned the scanner to them, he had been expecting one of them black and white grainy pictures that everyone got when they'd come back from the hospital. He had even mentally prepared himself for seeing just that, but what he saw, made him stop breathing for a moment, his hand tightening around Claire's, this made the whole damn thing so much more real.
He couldn't take his eyes away from the screen, wanted to commit it to memory to what this child, what his child looked like, fingers, toes, arms, everything and anything. His heart felt like it wanted to jump out of his chest, like it wasn't going to be able to be contained the longer he looked at the screen but he couldn't look away. The only thing he could liken it to was watching something happen in slow motion, you knew you should look away communicate with the person next to you, but nothing happened you were frozen to the spot.
His flight and fight instinct kicking in big time, and all he could do was stare at the screen in front of him, not uttering a word, even as he heard Claire say something. It was like it was coming from underwater, it wasn't very clear and he didn't really respond to her, just squeezed her hand tighter. He had - miraculously – helped create that, to make them an actual person that was, how had Claire put it, oh yeah still had several months left to cook.
Everything in him wanted to reach out and touch the screen, to want to hold that child that was currently 'cooking' inside of Claire. There was also a stronger emotion rearing it's head, one he had on really briefly felt when he'd been around her nieces and nephews and that was the need to protect. It was strong, very strong, part of him wanted to wrap Claire up in cotton wool, or maybe bubble wrap they had enough of that stuff on Atlantis for some bizarre reason, and never let her work another day until their child was born.
It was at that thought that he finally tore his eyes away from the screen, let himself take a breath that he hadn't realised he'd been holding and looked at Claire, seeing the tears run down her face. He smiled so proudly at her as he wiped the tears away, before kissing her soundly on the lips, there weren't exactly words he could summon up in that moment. What did he say? They had created something that was for all tense and purposes impossible, they had defied odds at near enough every turn in their working lives, he hadn't exactly expected them to do it in their personnel lives as well.
Pulling away slightly, he looked back at the screen, watching as their child seemed to move slightly, he wondered if Claire had felt that, wondered what it would be like the further along she got so he could feel it against his hand. Their child kicking up a storm, he couldn't quite believe that this was happening to them.
“Can we..” he started before clearing his throat, not realising how choked up he actually sounded, “Can we get a picture to keep? Do the scanners do that?”
He felt like he should know the answer to that question, but everything he seemed to know had for some reason fled his mind. There wasn't anything left in his mind except Claire and their child, he hoped that he hadn't overstepped by asking for the picture to be printed. Claire would get to feel their child as it grew, he would only be able to see his child when they had scans like this, he wanted something that he could carry around with him.
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